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Planning To Start A Family

16 Jul

One of the best things about having this blog has been meeting and coming to know others who want to start a family and talk about that journey. In fact, I just got this from my ask box on tumblr:

Hey there. Through mutual fangirlness of Grey’s I started following your tumblr and twitter and from there found your blog about trying to get pregnant. Basically I am asking you for any advice that you have. Me and my fiancee are planning our wedding and we know that in the next 12-24months we are gonna wanna start trying to have a baby. We just want to know if you or your Mrs have any advice, anything we should think about before starting any preparation. Thank you.

It can be a very intimidating road and I have been asked by lesbian couples a few times where to begin. I decided to write a post with what we thought was some good advice. This is a very personal process and decision so undoubtedly your roadmap will vary but this should give you some things to think about.

Since I’m mostly asked by other lesbian couples, this is tailored to them.

Start Saving Money – It is never too soon to start a “baby fund”. Really, never.  Sit down with your partner and look at your finances and figure out how you will afford getting pregnant, doctors visits, birth, adoption, legal fees, all of the things the baby will need and even child care eventually. Don’t overwhelm yourselves, but it’s a good way to financially commit to this decision. Even if you don’t earmark the costs specifically, trust me, you will be able to find some way to use that money and the earlier you can start socking it away, the better. Starting a family is especially expensive for same-sex couples and can be even more so if you live in a state where you cannot be legally married.

Live In A Stable Environment – Is there room where you currently live for kids? If you will need to move then that’s another cost that you will have to plan for. Some people feel like they need to own a home before they are ready to have kids, but I don’t necessarily believe that. You should know that you live in a place that will work to raise a family. If you start somewhere less optimal and get stuck there for an extended amount of time, it helps to know and like the school system that you are in. Think about your own education too. If you have educational goals that you are still working on, try to finish them before you start trying to conceive that way you can focus on your family when the time comes. It also goes without saying that you should feel like your relationship is stable and your partner is someone you want to raise a child with. Talk to your partner about marriage if you haven’t already done so. If one or both of you would like to be married or have a wedding before you have kids, that’s obviously another large cost you may need to plan for.

Talk About What You Both Want…A LOT – There are a lot of decisions to be made in this process and it’s intensely personal. Talk about why you each want a baby and if they are good reasons. You have to be ready to give up a lot and put your children’s needs first. Talk about the process: ICI, IUI, or IVF? Known donor or anonymous? Would you like your children to physically resemble you? Who will carry? Would you prefer to just adopt? We spent many evenings talking these things over and revisited some of them many times. You should know what is important to you and to your partner and what you can compromise on. A lot will depend on your budget and some things may not go exactly as planned. For us, we decided that we were going to start this process with the least evasive methods possible and take more aggressive steps forward in six month increments only as needed. Other friends I knew decided that IVF was a better choice for them and they began with that. Of course, you’ll need to work with a doctor before you can determine what your best course of action will be. You should have discussed these things enough to know your general preferences as a couple before discussing it with a Physician though.

Get A Good Lawyer – We found a great family law attorney and worked with her to get our medical power of attorney, wills and living wills in place years ago. If you do not live in a state where you can be legally married, these are very important to secure your rights and wishes. You may want to find an attorney that specializes in gay rights and adoption. We also used our attorney to create legal agreements between us and our known donor. These protect him as well as us and our child legally to the best of our ability and we would not have dreamed of trying to conceive without them. It’s likely that you’ll need a good attorney to complete an adoption or second-parent adoption for you in this process as well. Some lawyers specialize in adoption only. If you know same-sex couples in your area that already have kids, they are often the best to ask for a referral.

Educate Yourself – Read books and surf the internet to try to find resources. One of the best books I read early on was The Ultimate Guide To Pregnancy for Lesbians. The book has a lot of other resources listed in it and it will give you A LOT to think about. If nothing else, it was a really good tool to get us asking ourselves those important questions about what we wanted. As we talked about our choices, my curiosity about all of the options grew deeper. Learn about artificial insemination methods, sperm donors, adoptions and pregnancy as much as you can now. You’ll be glad you took the time to become informed proactively when you have to start calling the shots.

Create A Supportive Environment – The internet became my best friend. I found comfort, support and a lot of good advice in the blogs of other couples who were going through this process. Often, I found links from there to other blogs (I’m a bad blogger and never set that up, but they are out there). Talk to others who are going through it. I also created a good little support system for myself on twitter and that has been amazing! We ended up having a community that was rooting for us and picked me up on some pretty dark days. It was nice for me to have a bit of anonymity sometimes so that I could be honest and vent. But, there’s a dark side to the community too. You will inevitably watch others reach their goals before you do and that can be hard. I liked using the internet because I could turn it off when I had to escape. Some people prefer the comfort of talking to their family and friends about the conception process instead. I would just caution you to choose your audience wisely. Not everyone may approve, understand or have positive words for you and you should trust your gut about who will listen and be supportive in a way that you need when you are fragile. Communicating how I felt at times was very cathartic and some days when I was depressed about it I just couldn’t stand friends asking me how it was going. But everyone reacts differently. I wanted to tell my Mom what I was going through but I didn’t want her to know too much so we could hopefully surprise her with news one day and I was SO glad that worked out. I guarantee you will go through so many more emotions than you can anticipate. Find those who you can come to on good days and bad alike.

Get Healthy – If you’re planning on getting pregnant, or supporting your partner through a pregnancy you should be healthy first! Your body mass index should be in an optimal range for your best chances at fertility and if you have weight to lose or gain, a year in advance is the best time to do it. Try to achieve your optimal weight (and stay there) for at least 6 months before you start trying. If you smoke, quit now. It’s one of the best adjustments you can make for your whole families’ health. If you plan to quit drinking coffee and soda while you are pregnant, wean yourself off the caffeine about six months beforehand too. The morning sickness will be enough on its own without the caffeine withdrawal.  Start taking prenatal vitamins 6 months to a year before you plan to conceive to prevent birth defects and find out if any medications that you are on are safe to take during pregnancy. If they aren’t, try to find ways to get off of them in that year prior. I also found it was helpful to find out your blood type if you aren’t sure. If you are the one trying to get pregnant it’s important to get familiar with your menstrual cycle. Track it and try to learn about your body’s ovulation signs. Maybe even buy a basal body thermometer and start taking your temperature or use ovulation strips. Anything that helps you get the hang of when you will be most fertile. I found that keeping the info in a fertility app on my phone was easiest. Getting in shape goes for your mental health too. If you have baggage or emotional issues, consider getting therapy and working through it. Be the best person that you can be before you start bringing more people into this world.

Find A Good Doctor/Practice – You have to be comfortable talking to your doctor about your relationship and your plans. If you want to get pregnant, you should make a preconception appointment with your OBGYN (or take time during your regular appointment) to talk about it. If you have irregular periods, I’d advise doing that a year out. My doctor put me on birth control as an attempt to help my endometriosis subside and give us better chances before we started trying. That was a six month process and if I hadn’t gone so far in advance, I would have felt a little disappointed by the setback. It’s also a good idea to have regular STD testing done even if you think you have nothing to worry about. Most insurance covers them anyway and they will probably be required before any type of insemination. If there is anything to find out and treat, you’ll be glad you did it early. Talking to a doctor that doesn’t specialize in same-sex families can be a bit awkward at first, but you have to be willing to speak up and you should have a good feeling about your doctor and their bedside manner before you decide if you want them to handle your pregnancy.  This all makes sure that you have your ducks in a row and it will ease that transition from TTC into pregnancy when the time comes.

Make A Baby Bucket List – This process can take a while and sometimes, there is just nothing to do while you wait. We found it helpful to make a list of things that we wanted to do before we had kids and things that we wouldn’t be able to do for a while after. Go to Vegas, jump out of a plane, stay in bed all weekend, etc. (Okay, so I chickened out on the jumping out of a plane thing.)These are just examples of things that helped me feel like we were doing something for us that didn’t directly involve, doctors, lawyers or trying to get pregnant. Enjoy your lives, have fun with your partner and bond while you check things off your list. You’ll be able to look back one day and treasure that time before you were Mommies. I promise, doing those things will give you an escape and help you feel less overwhelmed. They’ll also make you feel even more ready to start your family.

Change Your Lifestyle – There was a time when we used to spend every Friday and Saturday out drinking with friends and dancing at the club. Even though I got very bored of “going out” I felt like if I was sitting at home on a weekend, I was lame. That may not be your speed, or maybe it is right now but you may want to work on changing that before you end up pregnant. Sometimes this just happens as you get older anyway. We started making a conscience effort to stay in watching movies at home on Friday nights if we didn’t already have plans. We spent more time with our own families and friends that already had kids and things naturally calmed down. It shouldn’t be nearly as much of a culture shock for you if you adjust slowly. We felt as though we had a group of friends in our lives that focused heavily on drinking and created more drama than they were worth so we sort of intentionally drifted out of that scene. We made new friends and we know that they will be there and want to spend time with us, even when there are kids in tow. Look at who you keep around you and if it fits into what you want your life to be.

Give Yourself Time – You have to be ready for anything once you start trying, but also patient enough for it to take a long time, especially if you are dealing with reproductive issues as we were. People are having kids later and later now and some of them fear that dreaded age 35 when your fertility begins to decrease. Find the balance that works best for you and don’t rush. The bottom line is that nothing teaches you patience and to expect the unexpected like having kids. Know what you want but try not to set unrealistic expectations. It can be a hard and scary process and I learned that sometimes things that you think won’t happen to you, do. It’s also the single most rewarding thing you might ever do with your life. Try to relax and enjoy every step of the way.

We hope this helps you and send our best wishes for starting a happy, healthy family!

E, the Mrs & Sprout 🙂

Syringes, Lawyers and Lab Tests. OH MY!

22 Apr

Well, the last few days have certainly been busy. We’re in our final stages of preparing for our first insemination. Last weekend we had a hellacious storm, got water in our basement and spent most of our free time dealing with that. We did manage to get to the drug store and find our “turkey baster” tool so we were happy to have that out of the way. We’re pretty much just going to be using a plain old oral medication syringe. I also bought some instead softcups but I don’t know if we’ll actually use them or not. Figured that it couldn’t hurt. We do still have to go out and get containers for “the product” but that’s about all that’s left to do. I’ve read that they shouldn’t have been washed with any detergents as that can kill sperm so we’ll figure out how we’re going to do that some time this week.

Yesterday we also went to see our lawyer. Usually when I think of “lesbian” and “lawyer” I think of Jane Lynch as Joyce Wischnia on the L Word. Luckily, our lawyer is very UN-Joyce like and kind. She was genuinely excited for us. YAY!

Joyce is so boss. I’m kinda glad she’s not our lawyer though.

Our attorney has known us for over five years but is happy that we’re finally taking this journey. After explaining our plans and what we want, it looks like the first thing we’ll be working on is an agreement that says that our donor intends to relinquish parental right after a birth takes place (you legally can’t do it beforehand). Since we can’t really penalize him if he decides not to sign away rights, the agreement  also states that he would pay an ASTRONOMICAL amount of monthly child support should he refuse and decide to stay a legal guardian. Support owed to a child is really the only deterrent that we could enforce. So basically, we’ve made it so that there’s no way in hell he could afford to keep the kid. Our lawyer assured us that even though he could fight it, a court would be pretty likely to enforce it since it would be beneficial to the child. I kind of hate that we have to do it that way but we have to play devil’s advocate and hopefully this is a safety net that we’ll never deal with anyway. After that gets all signed next week we can move on to revising our wills and working on second parent adoption prep later on in a pregnancy. We left feeling pretty good! Although this adoption is going to cost us several thousand dollars, it’s pretty straightforward and our attorney is a BOSS at this stuff.

So, the only other thing left to do was to get our last round of medical screenings out of the way for our donor. I paid for the tests in advance and scheduled an appointment and went with him this morning. It only took about a half hour to get all of his samples taken and I should have the results emailed to me in a few days. We did all the same screenings about six months ago but we’re doing them twice just to be as safe as possible. Since we’re not using a sperm bank that will screen and clean his swimmers for us, we don’t mind the cost of being extra cautious. The tests cost about $250 each time and I use this service that let me pay for them out of pocket and find a nearby clinic online (or you can even do them by mail). Our donor doesn’t have medical insurance right now but if he did I’m sure there’s other ways to get these tests covered. I think Planned Parenthood might be an option too but I’m not sure. This just worked best for us.

While I was with him we talked about the terms of the upcoming agreement and how we plan to actually “make the trade” on our insemination days. He’s being really, really great about everything and both he and his boyfriend are excited for me to get pregnant. I can hardly believe that it’s only a few days away already. THAT IS CRAZY!!!

Lastly, if you know me, you know I LOVE Grey’s Anatomy and so here’s a humorous moment that I just had to share with my fellow fans…
Since we will be inseminating some on week days and some next weekend days, we’re discussing playing with the times of day a bit and just seeing how it goes. The donor’s boyfriend suggested that maybe after we try next Saturday morning we could all head over to the local farmers market, which is something we all love to do.  I said that I’d be lying on my back with my legs in the air for about a half hour but after that, sure we could go do whatever. He looked at me very matter-of-factly and sang “If I lay here….If I just lay here….We will wait half an hour until you’re knocked up.” I died laughing. Maybe it was totally cheeseball of him but I don’t care. Things were feeling far too serious at that moment and I love that they just get that and wanted to make me smile anyway.


It’s all about timing

14 Apr

Last night we went to our hair dresser. She’s been on this journey with us for a good year or so and she always makes it a point to ask us “So? Baby stuff?” I think she genuinely wants to know but maybe assumes we don’t want to talk about it. But, OF COURSE I want to talk about it. We outlined our progress since we had last seen her, which wasn’t much but I did mention that since I went off birth control that my periods have gotten worse each month that I’ve had them.

Then this morning, Mrs E. says to me “I don’t want this to get harder because we waited too long and your endo started interfering. Should we start trying sooner?” (I’ve always been ready to try YESTERDAY.) So, we talked about it and we really don’t know why we’re still waiting beyond that this is what we agreed to do. Basically there’s only a few things standing in our way:

-Last round of donor test
-Family Attorney meeting (scheduled for the 21st of this month)

We decided that it IS a good idea and that we’re going to for it. Possibly in two weeks. Ultimately, our decision is only a go if logistically we can get the law stuff that we need to have done worked out in time. CRAP! That is really, really awesome and really, really scary all at the same time. I’ve been walking on air all day.


11 Apr

We. Jumped. In.

This blog is a way for us to rant, be elated and generally share our journey on our way to becoming parents. At times, the going gets rough and we hope that our struggles can give insight to others as well as help us form our own support group and channels of awareness.

For right now, I’m at the stage of the game when we are tracking my fertility signals and I’m peeing on ovulation sticks. We have chosen a known donor and gone through most of the necessary testing. Next month he goes for a few final tests, just to be sure and we can start trying to inseminate at the end of next month.

The waiting is HARD. Oh my god, SO HARD! It feels like everyone surrounding us right now is pregnant. Wait, everyone around us right now IS pregnant!! We’ve spent about a year dealing with my endometriosis and trying to get my cycle under control and now we are in the final stretch. Some days I kind of want to rip my hair out.