Rainbows, more impatience and acupuncture

5 Jun

We still have a few more days until we find out if this cycle worked or not. I’ve been a little crampy, had a constant headache and have been tired lately but as strange as it sounds, I’m not even focusing on that right now. I’ve actually had to consult my fertility app on my phone to be like “how many more days?” a few times this week. I’m looking forward so much to our next doctor’s appointment in two weeks so that we can find out what the heck our next steps are. I need to know. It’s killing me. “Whenwhenwhenwhenwhenfinallywhen?” is so much louder than the rest of my thoughts.

This past weekend we helped our donor and his boyfriend move to their new place and it’s about a 35 minute drive away. That alone has me  really feeling ready to leave our current plan and move on to our next step/method. Emotionally, I’m just not feeling very attached to them right now and while they will remain friends, I’m sure the distance of their move will only add complications that I just don’t want to deal with anymore.

We also attended a family reunion this weekend and I spent some time talking with my cousin’s wife who is an OBGYN about endometriosis and infertility. While she doesn’t know the full scope of exactly what we’ve been up to she did ask if I had tried acupuncture. I had given it thought before but was really surprised at how quick she was to recommend it.  It motivated me a little more to find a local acupuncturist and I called her today to set up an appointment.

Some of you may wonder why I’m doing this now and why I don’t just wait a few more days or weeks until we know what’s going on. All these little things help me though. They give me some sense of hope and control over the situation. These changes and a bit of space have helped me to pull more out of “my funk” I talked about last time. I’m not all the way out of the woods but I think I’m headed there. We saw a double rainbow on Sunday night, so we’ll hope that’s a good sign and enjoyed the pretty.

So, not much going on but that’s going to be the case sometimes as I’m trying to update more regularly. Oh, and there was this over the weekend too so maybe you can look forward to a post from someone else in the near future for a change. *Ahem*

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3 Responses to “Rainbows, more impatience and acupuncture”

  1. Lex June 6, 2012 at 4:20 am #

    Acupuncture was amazing for me – at every point of the TTC journey (the planning, the real trying, even to calm me down after the failed attempts). There is so much documented about acupuncture and fertility that it seems silly not to give it a go. There are some acupuncturists that specialize in fertility, but I’m sure any old style would do.

    Sounds like you’re closing a big chapter of your life with these boys/donors and I wish you the best with whatever the next steps end up being. Thinking of you guys… and happy to see the video proof 😉

  2. Katie June 9, 2012 at 6:27 pm #

    I am another lesbian ttc. I stumbled upon your page during a random google search. Just wanted to tell you this girl is rooting for you and sending you baby vibes and also that you are NOT alone!

    • elyima June 12, 2012 at 8:31 pm #

      Thank you so much, Katie! We can use all the help we can get!

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